Posted on Aug 16th, 2007
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Shelby
It is important that you understand that this will change every aspect of your life. It is up to you whether those changes will be positive or hurtful.
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Posted on Aug 16th, 2007
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In a weird way, my greatest challenge right now is handling my recent good fortune responsibly. I have been so broke for so long, and now that I've received some money, it would be sooooo easy to just start spending and having fun. I deserve it, right? But, I have to stay aware and realize that I also deserve not to be broke, and if I spend without responsibility, I'll be right back in the same rut. I have to continue to spend wisely, not recklessly. Budgeting is not "fun", but it will save me from the agony of not having enough to pay bills, like I've experienced this summer. Not saying that I shouldn't have a little fun, of course I should, but I can't go overboard. That's never been my strong suit, but I believe that I can get better at it if I plan ahead.
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Posted on Aug 16th, 2007
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My fear of not being perfect! I guess this could be seen as a fear of inadequacy. I am beyond perfectionistic. I expect so much of myself, and if what I do is less than perfect (which is always), then I do not feel good enough. I don't give myself credit for what I have accomplished. I should start to believe it when people give me praise for what I've done. Positivity begets positivity, so if I started to feel more positive about what I'm doing/being, it should be that much easier to continue.
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Posted on Aug 16th, 2007
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My divorce was a defining moment in my life. Before I finally made the decision to leave my ex-husband, I was meek, quiet, subservient, fearful, sick, withdrawn.... In the year prior to the huge dramatic conclusion oF my marriage, I started to gain confidence and found my voice. Even though it ended horribly, with my children and I living in a homeless shelter, it was an incredibly eye-opening experience. I could now be open to all of the possibilities that were available to me. I could assert myself, and take care of my children, and begin to heal that poor, wounded child that I had been for so long. I grew up, to put it plainly. I wouldn't trade the experience for anything, because it was the beginning of my "becoming", my "being".
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Posted on Aug 16th, 2007
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I can't think of one particular thing I most enjoy, I suppose it would just being awake, aware, and knowing that I have the power to shape my life for good or for ill - again.
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Posted on Aug 16th, 2007
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Quiet night breathes
Rain drips and quenches
Nourishing life
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Posted on Aug 16th, 2007
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I need to constantly remind myself that I lack nothing, despite what I may think I need. That I do have a purpose, a reason for being, and it is my responsibility to discover it. THat my mistakes do not define me.
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Posted on Aug 18th, 2007
by Shelby
Most importantly, honesty - to myself, to others, to be open to the truth. If I am not honest in all aspects of my life, then everything is worthless.
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Posted on Aug 18th, 2007
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Spirituality, rather than "giving" me a purpose in life, is the way I choose to live out my purpose. My connection to the divine spark within me allows me to experience life more fully and consciously. Since I believe that God simply is, that all is God and God is all, I do not know that religion is the way to achieve consciousness. It can be a great point of entry, giving people a glimpse of what spirit is, but we must move beyond that place of being led by others, and learn to follow that path that only we can travel, led by spirit, led by ourselves.
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